if this ain't laugh trip i don't know what is!

if this ain't laugh trip i don't know what is!

i was going through some dusty old handouts when i came across a magical stationery pad that made me laugh so hard i got all gassy afterwards...written in front, in big bold letters are the words:

"You made me realize, that all I want...Is to be with you!"

standard stationery crap if you know what i mean. i'm pretty sure you remember Tsukuba (TM) from your statio swapping days back in elementary. printed on the stationery was a drawing of a boy and a girl sitting on the grass surrounded by flowers, holding hands while their pet dog lay down nearby. same old, same old. i'm not quite sure where that piece of junk hailed from.

i went through the first few pages of the pad and written were quotations about luuuuuv. boy was it cheesy! and then there were songs, ultra cheesy! and then the best part(drum roll please...) poems galore! ultragalactic-major-beyond-your-wildest-dreams mush mush mush.

but it left me laughing my ass off. man this is hilarious. let me share you one poem straight from the stationery: (unedited version, comments are in smaller sizes and unitalicized)

Knowing those person,

Knowing who really them,

Knowing those things that was interesting!

Oh gosh isn't it funny?

You are interested to these person

You want to know them more!

Like a mirror

you've seen a lot

but you don't deserve!

You want to find those things that was

new in your life

Like a fuckin shit feather!

And a bitch monkey whose so

innocent

But if you think...

If you ask them

Did they do the same?

Did they feel the same?
You're just playing a damn shit

into the mirror

Knowing those reasons why?

now tell me this isn't funny... :D writer is still unknown. like a fuckin shit feather!

wretched sembreak!

wretched sembreak

and to think i have only been on it for two days! i'm frikkin' bored. bored like hell. i mean you should try staying at home, alone on a weekday and you'd go nuts. gaawwd... all the stuff that could come into your mind could definitely drive you out of your wits. and sometimes, i think i could even hear myself think. and maybe run out of things i could think of.

the tv and me? we're getting closer by the minute. rebuilding and reinforcing old bonds which were weakened by the semester that had gone by. i'm discovering and rediscovering programs and i think i'm falling deep-hard-face-down-flat-on-the-ground for nick. not nick carter, silly! i already had my share of him back in grade school. nyahahaha. am talking about nickelodeon. juts about the greatest channel ever (yeh yeh we don't have etc or disney or discovery. don't rub it in!).

there's this new show on whacked airing every friday on nick, Girls in Love. i know it sounds like some lame old chinovela or something but it's waaaaaaaaaayy better. it's some kinda Lizzie McGuire-ish with people talking with that crisp English accent. it's cool. probably because I can totally relate with Ellie, the bida girl and the perfect mix of teenage angst and everything else. and my, my the English boys are soooo cute. i'm telling you if they're not cute, i don't know what is. >:)

so anyway, there's this other show, Drake and Josh. it's kinda corny but wtf i adore Drake Bell!

"i heart drake"

Imagine

currently listening to: a perfect circle's remake of a John Lennon song on Launch™

astig 'to. hate to call it a "revival" but they sure did justify that J.L. hit.

Imagine

Imagine there's no heaven

I'ts easy if you try

No hell below us

Above us only sky

Imagine all the people

Living for today

Imagine theres no countries

It isn't hard to do

Nothing to kill or die for

No religion too

Imagine all the people

Living life in peace

You may say

I'm a dreamer

But I'm not the only one

I hope someday you will join us

And the world will live as one

Imagine all the people

Sharing all the world

You may say I'm a dreamer

But I'm not the only one

I hope someday you will join us

And the world will live as one

Imagine no possesions

I wonder if you can

No need for greed or hunger

A brotherhood of man

Imagine all the people

Sharing all the world

You may say I'm a dreamer

But I'm not the only one

I hope someday you will join us

And the world will live as one

and i thought it was over

but no! i'm taking the finals on microbiology! gaawwwd. after all that exposure (to pathogens) and effort... well, okay maybe there wasn' t too much effort involved... but still, i'm taking the frikkin' finals!

maybe it's ego. maybe i was just expecting too much. or maybe God is sending me a message. and there i was, actually thinking i could work my magic yet one more time.

ikaw kasi natulog ka nanaman, diba may exam?

tangna kasalanan ko ba?!

my fave hobby

had one whole day wasted. i found myself sitting in silence, staring in blank space, doing absolutely nothing. and i swear, that was the greatest feeling ever. for years i've searched forthings i enjoy doing, like some hobby or something. now i know. doing nothing would be the greatest pleasure. now i know, i have confirmed, i'm the laziest person i know.

just bragging about

my 89 on that last biochem exam. i'm ecstatic. don't know how i pulled that one off. hoorah. you see, no matter how cliche this may sound, there's a rainbow after the storm (well... not always. but, hell, it's just a figure of speech). and now i'm too happy to study for my pathophys exam. raaayyyyyt. and i actually thought about rainbows?!

corregidor galore

must see pare.

"to corregidor. rule #1: never let the camera see you're sea sick"

"first pic sa corregidor. ang init!"

"amazing... we're like flying. kahit sa picture lang."

"bilis, bilis baka abutin tayo ng alon."

"batuhan"

"batukan"

"the green, the blue, the sky over you"

"view hidden behind the clouds or perhaps poor film exposure"

"where's wally?"

"suicide cliff: ironic huh?"

"suicide from another viewpoint"

pre-sembreak jitters

two more weeks and still a ton of exams and requirements to go and we're so done with the semester! i seriously need thorough detox (or stresstabs). konting tiis na lang friends malapit na ang sembreak. i could practically taste sembreak already (yum yum).

leader ako? wtf.

for the first time in my whole pathetic college life, i was chosen to lead a group. what were they thinking?! gawd. seriously, either napagtripan or wala ng mapiling iba. i go for the latter. heller! groupmates walang sisihan ha. you know i can't handle too much responsibility. i'll try. but i'm not promising anything. :) goodluck sa presentation natin sa para 10N sa tuesday. hihihi.

Nursecissm

last Friday. every other batch presentation looked mediocre compared to the seniors'. ours? nvm. it wasn't sucky. but nvm. Hands to Cholo- Best Actor. woohoo! proud kami sa'yo.

till we meet again, Ward 10

Ward 10 was one helluvan experience. major toxicity. major everything. i had two patients, both on their late 20's. heaven knows why all the shy patients are assigned to me(we're supposed to have random assignments). both didn't want to have their breasts examined. kainis. the second one, really sure of her sexuality. i thought she was just tomboyish but then again...oops client confidentiality...

On our last day in the Ward, i was able to bathe one of the patients with Mae. major bathing experience pare. he was a he. and he had us sweating like crazy. my hair was a total mess (messier than usual) afterwards. and my energy was down to nil. if you're asking why, our patient was an 18-yr-old tubby boy post-op with fresh stapled and still slightly bleeding stitches from the left mandible to the ribs. it was real scary. i wanted to faint. but then again regained composure. ethics thing. we were really, really careful not to hurt him or move him too much because the staples looked like they readily pop out when provoked. i may get sued for medical malpractice, oh no. anyways, scrub scrub and we're done. we just had to repeat the scrubbing several times though because the layer of dead epithelia was so thick that one scrubbing wasn't enough. still scarier was the shampooing part. there was too much movement involved.

cheesy

i was fighting the urge to sleep on my pathophys class last thursday. it was such an ungodly hour and the temperature's perfect for dozing plus the fact that i had just eaten lunch and i didn't have enough sleep the night before. and still maybe because we were on cardiovascular(CV) diseases. i never liked the cardiovascular system. it's just a whole bunch of narrow tubes which, on my point of view, all looked alike, controlled by this muscular thing called the heart. very, very confusing. and now we had to study CV diseases. gawd i couldn't care less!

so anyway, i was on stage 1 (half-asleep, half-awake) of NREM on my sleep cycle, when i heard my teacher say something i knew i just had to take down:

"even before pathologic conditions, adaptable na ang heart"

i knew it meant much more than that. even before the heart gets hurt, it learns so much as it can take, and then it breaks. but the point is it learned. we learn and become better with every ache. hearts just don't become broken you know. sabi nga, "no matter how many times we've been burnt, the heart is incredibly resilient".

if you happen to ask where all this mushiness comes from... well, i don't f*ckin know!

torn

torn

my taggy's broken. arrgh. no time to fix it yet. but sembreaks coming up soon. so i'll have all the time in the world (bwahahahaha). i'm planning to go out of town though. naks, i sound like a jetsetter. haha. don't be fooled! after this sem i want to have a thorough detox something. kahit ano. basta detox. i want to go to pangasinan or baguio or even mt. province. sana matuloy. ahhh... so many plans... wala namang natutuloy.

basta alam ko, i'm in such an awkward position right now. hindi ko nanaman alam ang gagawin ko. help me...

our corregidor pics will be coming soon. (next attraction pa pala hehe).

Whoa Imelda!

We owe Imelda Marcos for putting the Philippines on the map because of her extravagant collection of shoes…thousands of them. People of the world have put up an amazing correlation, almost a congruency between her and her Guinness-worthy love for shoes. Imelda was an institution all on her own that she even had a whole new adjective coined after her- Imeldific. It was like she lived in a different reality, a bubble, with her glamorous wardrobe, her roomful of shoes and the illusion that being beautiful was her mission and purpose.

She would talk about love and beauty and the cosmos and how beauty has made her a "star and slave" and how beauty is "God and Love made real". Really, weird stuff. She had a museum built for her and dioramas depicting her "moments". NOw that was really really weird. Almost kinda freaky. Dioramas of yourself? Watdahel. Now, tell me she's not obsessed and borderline narcissistic. BUt I have to admit she is pretty. ANd the clothes, gawd, superb! fabulouso. I wouldn't comment on the political stuff, ill-gotten wealth etc. I don't know much about that. What I do know is that Imelda led an extravagant life. ANd maybe on one part, we can't blame her for being too Imeldific. Well, what can I day? she is Imelda.

I could go on and blab about Imelda forever but the documentary is still something you have to see to believe. I saw it last Monday and whoa was all I managed to say. Awestruck, flabbergasted, dumbfounded, confused, amazed, astounded, wowed, (credits to shift F9) everything! Words can’t possibly describe how I felt. I don’t know. It’s kind of a mixture of knowing and understanding and yet being utterly confused at the same time. Oh the irony that is Imelda!

onli in da Pilipinas kong mahal at mura lang dito sa puso ng saging kiko matsing at pong pagong

kakaiba rin dito sa Pinas no? kapag sinabing 7 PM, ang ibig sabihin 8 PM pa maguumpisa ang party. kapag sinabing semi-formal ang attire, naka-jeans ang mga tao. kapag formal naman, naka semi-formal naman sila. ano ba talaga?!

at dito ka rin lang makakakita ng handaang walang lamesa. puro upuan. yung mga nirentahang table andun sa mga sunog-baga na walang kamuwang-muwang na sila rin ay excellent candidates for cirrhosis. yung mga bisita hirap na hirap kumain mula sa paper plate ng nakatayo habang ang mga walang hiyang sunog baga, ayun nagpapalaki ng tiyan habang nilalason ang kanilang mga apdo. grrr... damn them all.

at exclusive sa Pilipinas na yung kasali sa 18 roses ng debutante ay nakashirt, nakashorts, naka cap at all clad na parang clone ni Nelly (in other words, jologers ever). Duh! Shit mamamatay ako andami nila e. Feeling nigger ang mga gag*. Call me judgemental. Wala akong pakialam. Dumadami na ang population nila. Sa Rob din ang dami. gawd... tsk tsk. iyan ba ang napapanood sa telebisyon ng mga kabataan ngayon? poor them.

dito rin lang sa Pinas mo maeencounter yung mga tao na magpapakipot muna, pero magsasalita rin naman pala sa mic. lam mo yun? minsan nakakainis. minsan ok lang. ewan.

tapos may isang babae, wala naman siyang ginagawa sa 'kin. pero inoobserve ko siya form a distance (ewan ko kung bakit). at naiinis ako sa kanya. yung inis na parang gusto kong itapon sa mukha niya yung pagkain ko. parang ganun. hindi ko alam kung bakit. naiirita ako sa kanya. grrr.. pag naaalala ko yung pagmumukha niya. naiirita pa rin ako. grrr...

ngayon ko lang nalaman, na pwede rin pala akong magpaka anti-social. siguro naiirita rin sila sa 'kin. well, paki ko?

may comments thingy na 'ko

Due to insistent public demand(read as: Sedricke), finally, may comments link na rin ako. Courtesy of Haloscan. Di ko pa nalalagay sa bloggy ko yung credits kasi tinatamad pa ko. Anyway, pag wala na lang akong magawa ulit saka ko siya aayusin. K? Basta, gamitin niyo yan. Para sa inyo yan. Huwag niyong sayangin ang pagkakataong mang-okray. N0 censorship tayo dito. Pwede kahit ano. Freedom of speech e. Ginagalang ko yang karapatan niyo. Ang comments link na ito ay karagdagang outlet ng naghihimutok, nagpupumiglas at di mapigil-pigil na damdamin (parang tae no?). Gamitin niyo yan. INUUTUSAN KO KAYONG LAHAT MAG-COMMENT, ANG HINDI SUMUNOD SWANGIT!

Newsflash: heaven is taking sides now... and it's on mine!

Narcolepsy took its toll on me again. I was studying for my Micro exam and I haven't even gotten through half the handouts and lecture notes when it did. Like the silent and treacherous akyat-bahay,it crept through every nerve, bone and muscle. With the highlighter left open leaving a huge stain of highlighter ink on my bed sheet and photocopied lecture notes scattered just about everywhere, I dozed off while the Micro test found its way into the deep recesses of my subconscious. I was too sleepy and too darn narcoleptic (only when I’m studying) to think about bacteria or viruses or fungi. With no effort to battle drowsiness, I fell asleep… just like that. I didn’t know a thing on fungi and viruses and I wasn’t able to prepare for the health teaching session I was supposed to have with my client the next day.
The following morning, as if all heavens knew, classes were suspended. Thank goodness. Now I have more time to waste :)

Practice Lab Session

Pakiramdam ko didikit na sa mata ko yung ocular ng microscope ko. At feeling ko rin lahat ng makita kong pahaba na bulate-like ay bulate tapos lahat ng mukhang itlog ng bulate ay itlog ng bulate. Kapag nakakakita ako ng naglalako ng fishball o kung anumang street food sa labas ng UP ang naiimagine ko mga bulate. Bulate sa lupa, bulate sa hangin, bulate sa balat, bulate sa ilalim ng kuko, bulate sa paborito mong pagkain. Lahat may bulate. Nakakapraning. Kung di naman bulate, bacteria. Sa table ko sa lab may staph aureus, sa lab gown ko dumikit ang e.coli, may bacteria sa microscope, sa lapis, sa alchol lamp. May bacteria rin sa kamay at sa balat. Sa loob ng bibig may bacteria rin. Bacteria at bulate. Bulate at bacteria. Paranoia.

Don’t forget to wash your hands. May bacteria rin diyan sa mouse at keyboard niyo.

And in the end, we all go home to defecate

Written in bold letters on our course outline for Parasitology 10N: Bring: fresh stool sample on Aug 13
Watda?! First meeting ng lab? ano yan (sabi nga ni aylin), baptism of fire?
Bring your own. Syempre nga naman mas gugustuhin kong usisain ang sariling akin kaysa sa jerbs ng iba. But I failed. Nalate pa ko dahil dyan. E ano bang magagawa ko kung ayaw talaga diba?! Nilunok ko ang aking pride at nanghingi ako ng stool sample sa lab seatmate ko. Sa totoo lang, di ko na alam kung kaninong jerbs na yung tinitignan ko sa ilalim ng microscope. Chaos na kasi sa klasrum nun. Naitapon ko pa nga yung lalagyan ng stool nung isa kong kaklase kasi naman sabi itapon na raw pag tapos na. Edi tinapon ko kasi tapos na ko. E yung may-ari nun di pa pala tapos. Magulo na yung utak ko nun.. Naghalo-halo ang amoy ng 70+ na tae. Kadireeee. Kahit naka mask ka. Maamoy mo pa rin. Ganun katindi. At malas mo pa kung katulad kita, na ilang beses pinaulit ng lab instructor na gumawa ng DFS (direct fecal smear). "Ma'am wala nga akong dala e kulit mo!" Pero hindi ko sinabi yan syempre.

First Time sa Community


Sa college namin, part ng clinical duty ng student nurse hindi lang ang hospital exposure kundi pati na rin yung community exposure. Sa Pasay ako na-assign. Do’n sa may San Pablo Health Center sa may malapit sa border ng Parañaque atsaka Pasay. Siyempre dahil first time kong magcocommunity nursing yung may totoong pasyente kaya hindi ako late. Maaga pa nga e. Halong excitement, saya tapos kaba. Yung para bang natatae ka pero hindi. Parang ganon. Plantsadong-plantsado ang uniform. Bagong-bago ang sapatos. Bagong bag. Kumpletong supplies. Para bang ipinagsisigawan na "Hoy tignan niyo ko nurse na ako! First time ko 'to." Totoong-totoo na ‘to. Hindi na ‘to tulad nung sa lab na lab partner mo ang uusisain. This is really is it. Dalawa lang ang pwedeng kahinatnan: magustuhan mo o mapagdalawang isip ka sa kursong pinili mo.

Unang beses ko ring nakasakay nun sa CN van. Medyo masakit pa ang ulo ko nung pumasok ako, kaya naman nung binuksan ko yung pinto ng van at pumasok ako sa loob, parang gusto ko na ulit lumabas. Dahil mahilo-hilo pa ko nun, parang gusto ko nang masuka. So ayun, tiniis ko na lang ever. Tapos umandar na yung van. “Hoy manong wala pa si Ma’am!” May sinabing kung ano si Manong driver, di ko naintindihan. Ok fine. Iwan na lang natin si Ma’am. Hindi aircon ang van ng CN kaya I-can-feel-the-air ang drama naming lahat. Window side pa naman ako. At believe me, mas gusto kong masuka nung naamoy ko yung pinahalu-halong aroma ng usok ng Maynila, car air freshener nung van at basura sa kalsada. Di pa man kami nakakarating ng San Pablo, mukhang ako na yata ang magiging sarili kong pasyente.
Makipot yung mga daan tapos ang raming bahay kaya nagulat kami nasa Health Center na kami agad. Jampacked ang center. Daming tao. Puro sanggol. Out of nowhere, nag-appear si Ma’am. Sinabi muna niya yung mga dapat naming gawin para sa araw na ‘yun. Tapos pumasok na kami sa center. Una parang nawawala pa ako. Sa una kasi parang mahihiya kang lapitan yung mga pasyente. Pero di rin nagtagal yun kasi alam kong marami pa kong kailangang gawin. Nilapitan ko ang unang pasyenteng nakita ko. Sa pamamagitan ng aking award-winning smile (ahem… wag ng kumontra..) at therapeutic communication skills nagpakilala ko. “Magandang umaga po ako po si Erica Diaz. Ako po yung magiging nurse niyo ngayong araw na’to…blah blah blah”. Ganun talaga pakapalan ng mukha pag nurse ka na. At syempre dapat feeling close ka na agad. Kailangang magkaron kayo ng rapport ng pasyente. Buti na lang mabait ang nanay ng napili kong patient. Hindi ko alam kung alam niyang first time ko. May kodigo pa kasi ako nung naghehealth history e. Halatang-halata. Yung mga ibang tanong niya hindi ko masagot. Katulad ng “Kelan ba magkakangipin ang baby ko?”. Alam ko 6 months pero di ako sigurado. No sweat mag-health history, baby kasi ang pasyente. Madali rin lang ang vital signs at pagkuha ng weight. Pero mahirap kumuha ng anthropometric measurements (head circumference, chest circ at waist circ) habang nakatingin si Ma’am. Nakakakaba. Siguro dahil baby yun at medyo fragile atska yung pressure na alam mong nakatingin ang CI (clinical instructor) mo sa’yo, bawal kang magkamali.


Yung pasyente ko, nagpunta sa health center para magpabakuna. Pagkatapos maturukan (hindi ako ang nagturok) sumama na ako sa kanila pauwi para sa home visit. Kabuntot si Ma’am siyempre pero sa bahay ng pasyente ni Mae siya sumama. Parang nawawala nanaman ako. Hindi ko nanaman alam kung san maguumpisa pano kasi, natulog si baby. Hindi ko tuloy siya maphy-physical exam. Sa pagbalik ko na nga lang. Pinagmeryenda pala muna ako, nakakhiya nga e siyempre kasi hindi naman mayayaman ang pasyente sa center kaya yung paghanadaan ka nila maski sprite at skyflakes malaking bagay na yun. Pero naisip ko mas nakakahiya kung di ko kakainin yun kasi nagabala pa sila para sa kin. Ininom ko na rin yung sprite at binaon ko na lang yung skyflakes. Sa susunod ako naman siguro ang magdadala ng meryenda.
Bumalik na kami ni Donna sa center. Magkapitbahay lang kasi yung pasyente naming. Hindi ko alam kung matatandaan ko ang daan kapag babalik na kami dun. Marami kasing pasikot-sikot. Bahala na. Basta malapit sila sa “dagat”. Nung pabalik kami yung mga tambay naririnig ko sabi nila “Nurse ito o may sakit sa puso… yadda yadda”. Natawa na lang kami.


Pagbalik sa center. Nag-coffee break muna kami bago kami pumasok ulit sa loob at nautusan akong kumuha ng BP ng mga pasyente. At siyempre dahil libre yun, pila-pila na sila. Yung isa nga sobrang taas ng BP e. Medyo nabarbero ko yata yung reading ko ng BP niya. 160/110 kasi dapat ang sinabi ko 140/110 lang. High blood kasi. Nakakatakot. Anyways, yung isa ko namang kinuhaan ng BP sobrang machika. Siya naman kabaliktaran nung isa dahil super low blood niya. Matagal na raw kasi siyang dinadatnan. Tinanong ko kung ilang linggo na. Sabi niya “Hindi linggo ‘no. Buwan na!”. Ok fine. Dahil daw kasi yun sa pills. Tinanong ko kung nagpatingin na siya sa doctor dapat kasi magmukha kang concerned or at least maparamdam mo sa kanya na concerned ka parang ganun.


Pagkatapos tinawag na kami ni Ma’am para sa conference. Sa ilalim lang ng puno, nothing formal. Sasabihin naming kung ano ang mga natutunan namin para sa araw at kung anu-ano pang kachuvahan na dapat naming ituro sa pasyente. Hindi toxic si ma’am para lang nga kaming naglalaro e. Yun nga lang sa totoong buhay na. Dyahe lang kasi masakit ang ulo ko nun. Di ko masyadong na-enjoy. Pero kung di siguro masakit ang ulo ko, kahit na pagod ayos lang kasi masaya naman.
Ito na yung gagawin ko for the rest of my life, I’d either love it or hate it.

at the foodcourt

this is what we do...

we just love taking pictures... of ourselves!

yana, kare and me (left to right)

"this wasn't supposed to be wacky..."

"looking into the future... do i really look constipated?"

"yana: strategy, strategy

kare: hmmm... ok ok

egay: wtf!"

another blah entry

maybe i should be reading more Porth and still a lot more Kozier

and another saturday was wasted... kainis. Nagising ako ng 1PM. Kumain ng bruncherienda tapos nagumpisang magbasa ng "How to Bath a Client". Nung nasa part na kung paano papaliguan ang lower extremities, nakatulog ako. Shooot! wtf! Nagising ako mag fofour na. Pagkatapos ng isang oras ng pagbabasa, nagsawa ako. Nood muna. hmmph. Pagkatapos, tinawag nanaman ako ng pc. Sino ba naman ako para tumanggi?

At ganyan nga nasayang ang sabado...

Ever wonder why the Camdens seem so perfect? kills me. :p

my new template

my new template

wow at last. nakapagbago rin ako ng template. sa notepad lang ako nag-edit. wala na kasi yung frontpage namin. napalitan na ng publisher (woohoo!).

kelangan ba ipaliwanag kung bakit nagpapalit ng template ang isang tao? hindi na no! minsan kasi magsasawa ka rin talaga. medyo ang layo nga nito sa dati kong template e. but i like it. hmmph. wala na lang akong masabi. .. ciao!

just before we plunge into another week of toxicity

nababebi-bobo nanaman ako. hindi ko alam kung kulang ako sa isip (thinking) o nasosobrahan na. minsan nangyayari yata talaga sa tao 'to. yung pakiramdam mo sobrang ingay ng mundo. pati sarili mo hindi mo na marinig mag-isip. ang isip (mind) ay nananatiling matino (sane) kung paminsan-minsan pakikinggan natin ang sasabihin nito. :)

the cup is not half-empty or half-full...  it's about to explode!
grrr... badtreeeeep talaga. bakit? hindi ko rin alam.  baka hormones. ewan!!! kung pwede lang sumigaw ang isip (o sige pati na rin ang puso kahit mushy) matagal ko ng ginawa. naiinis ako sa lahat pati na sa sarili ko. it indeed has been a completely, utterly BLAH day for me. like this day was doomed to be lousy and crappy and ughh, watever! yung utak ko nagmumura na (di kasi ako nagmumura ng verbal). bakit ba kailangang magkaron ng mga ganitong araw? nakakapikon.

sana bukas okay na. sana bukas hindi na kasing kasumpa sumpa ng ngayon.  sana bukas masaya. sana bukas may bukas pa rin. at kahit na patuloy kong isumpa ang ngayon, buti na lang may bukas...

*sa pagpost ko nito, July 28 na. technichally eto na yung bukas. bukas na naging ngayon. pero hindi ito yung ngayong sinusuka ng buong pagkatao ko. bahagi na yun ng kahapon. magulo pero hindi. simple pero kumplikado. EWAN!

resurrect

hey... this is kinda cool. after forever ngayon lang ulit ako nakapagonlyn at nagpost ng entry. uhurm... bago na pala dito sa blogger. more user-friendly (read as: for dummies). and you can even upload files already but it's a kinda complicated process for me. astig.
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'twas gabs' debut celeb last saturday. of course, picturan galore ever nanaman. oh well, that's what we do, we take pictures! and we love having our pictures taken too.  astig. dami dami nanamang pictures.  after the debut, punta kami sa bedrock. there was this long haired blonde caucasian guy sa bedrock who headbanged a lot.  like duh! hindi naman rock yung tugtog 'no. kadiri talaga kasi feeling namin may mahuhulog na kung ano mula sa ulo niya (kuto or something) habang nagheheadbang siya. ewwwwe talaga. tapos someone saw the  same guy, grab another girl's boobs (kasama yata niya yun e, and she's Pinay). stupid pervs. get a room please! 
 
so ayun, basically bedrock was fine. masaya nga e. kaya lang masyadong maraming mushy songs. aherm.. and ang aga namin umuwi.

dyahe. dami na namang schoolstuff, bullshit talaga. plus this fact na tuwing tuesday hanggang 8.30 kami sa school to drown ourselves in biochem. juskoooo! creepy pa naman sa faura pag ganung oras. and to think, nakaya kong lakarin mula faura hanggang masagana ng ganung oras. natawag ko na yata lahat ng santo and God knows kung gaano ang dasal ko habang naglalakad ako. kulang na lang e ako na mismo ang mag misa. nakakatakot talaga. feeling mo may bigla na lang hahatak sa'yo mula sa madidilim na sulok tapos hoholdapin ka.promise, sobrang hindi bagay ang pangalang padre faura sa padre faura.
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nakakatawa, hindi ba nila narerealize na sobrang mali ang sabihing "fuck you ka"? redundant at para mo na ring sinabing, "fuck ka ka" o "fuck you you". kumbaga nagiging adjective ang turing sa "fuck you" imbis na ituring itong isang buong sentence. tanggap ang ibig sabihin ng "fuck you ako" (i am fuck you) kahit na problematiko ang pangungusap. ipagpalagay na hindi verb ang turing sa fuck. sino ba talaga ang fuck? ikaw(you) o ako? diba? 'wag mong sabihing hindi mo naiisip yan... dahil kung gayon edi fuck you ka rin pala. fuck you tayong lahat.

*** wga mo ng itanong kung bakit ko naisulat yan. mahabang talastasan yun. (take note: hindi diskurso, hindi rin dekonstruksiyon <-- mga tagakas2 lang makakagets niyan siguro)

this is a test. i repeat. this is a test.

my big, fat wedding disaster

my big, fat kitchen DISASTER

ewan ko ba kahit san ako mapunta ayaw talaga akong tantanan ng malas o di kaya sakuna.
ganito kasi yun. wedding ngayon ng tito ko. so pumunta ko. actually, ayoko nga nung una. pero napilit na rin ako. hindi na 'ko pumunta sa simbahan, dyahe pa yun e. dumerecho na ko agad sa handaan. anyway, yung handaan, sa bahay lang naman ng tito ko. nothing fancy. yung isa kong tita naghihintay sa bahay. hindi rin siya sumama sa simbahan dahil siya yung magaasikaso ng stuff. tamad mode on nanaman ako, nagsasoundtrip, nakatingin sa kawalan. freeing my mind. haha. habang natataranta na ang aking tita sa paghahanda. ahem. what can i say? talagang tamad po ako.

inutusan ako ng tita ko gumawa ng sawsawan para raw sa lumpia (lingid sa kanyang kaalaman ang gulong pinasok niya). lagyan ko raw ng bawang, suka at paminta. pumunta ko sa kusina para gawin yung sawsawan. okei, madali lang naman yun e, nakita ko ng gumawa ng ganun ang nanay ko. inuna ko ang suka. so far so good... sumunod naman yung bawang. 3 cloves ang dinurog ko gamit ang mortar at pestle. inilagay ko sa suka. aba mahusay... palatable pa naman ang ginagawa ko. last kong idinagdag ang paminta. hindi ko maalala kung durog o buong paminta ang ilalagay pero dahil ang una kong nakita sa kusina ay buong paminta yun ang nilagay ko. kaya lang nabuhos ko yung buong bote dun sa sukang may bawang. as in buong bote. imbis na 'sukang may bawang at paminta' ang kalalabasan, naging 'pamintang may suka at bawang'. nagpanic ako at kinuha ko yung mga paminta. baka sakaling ma-save ko pa yung sawsawang ginagawa ko. nung natanggal ko na lahat ng paminta, medyo gray na yung suka. at nalaman kong pamintang durog pala dapat ang ilalagay. galeng... huli na ang lahat. ubos na ang suka.

at aba ang lakas rin ng loob netong tita ko. pinagawa pa ko ng juice. bwahahaha.

my last respects... to Carlo

my last respects... to Carlo

i don't know him personally. heck, i don't even know his real name. i call him Lei from the character he came as at last year's tea party (MEteor Garden theme). in a room of a hundred plus people, he was hard to miss. well, what can i say? he does have his own share (and quite a good share at that) of good looks. and i'm pretty sure there's more to him than that. yeh ryt how cliche! even though i practically don't know him, somehow, i felt the loss like, i think, everybody else in the college did.

it kinda hits you when someone that young, inches away from graduation and from finally getting hold of his dream, dies a tragic and sudden death. well i guess, it's true what they say, you never can tell when death would become you or in what way, shape or form it would come. it just does... life sure is a sucky game. bummer.

to Carlo, this may sound too cliche again, but wherever you are, i know you would have wanted to touch people's lives. and you did. you reminded us life that life is indeed short and isn't just about school or career. it's about more important things often overlooked. and as Cholo would put it, it's about making each day the greatest achievement of your life.

kung nasan ka man ngayon...pag nakita mo ang Diyos. ikamusta mo ko sa Kanya.

E ano ngayon?
i just realized... i hate my template. it's too pa-cute and too flowery. just sooo not me. mas gusto ko na pala ngayon ang contrast of dark and bright colors. may conflict pero hindi problematic... parang ako.


meet the third wheel
in case tamarin akong tapusin ang BS, meron na 'kong fall back career, ang maging third wheel. sigh... i've been doing it for so long, i'm actually starting to get really good. professional na nga yata. ha! like it's a good thing! nagiging instrumento lang tuloy ako ng mga pagtakas at patagong pagkikita ng mga magboboyfrend. ganito ang senaryo:
(girl magpapaalam sa nanay)
Girl: "Ma, punta lang ako sa . kasama ko naman si ... "
pero ang totoo... sigh... ang masaklap nito, nagpapagamit naman ako. tsk tsk tsk, sick sick sad world. oh well, what can i say? that's life... for me.

well at least come to think of it, may mabuti naman akong naidudulot sa mundo. i fill the world with forbidden love. yeah, it's forbidden. but LOVE nonetheless...

and by the way, i have unearthed my one true love (for now)... billiards!
ayos!
credits kay kes para sa isang nakakamanghang larawan

after so long ngayon lang ulit ako magbblog...
updates sa buhay ko (para lamang sa interesado):
1. marunong na 'kong kumuha ng vital signs ng cliente (milestone sa pagiging nurse ko)
2. kaya lang parang ayoko na ulit mag-nurse.
3. last week 3 out of 4 days, may i cry, cry ang drama ko. damn, hirap maging babae...
4. debut ni donna last sunday. masaya. late ako.
5. after nun punta kaming eastwood for fete de la musique kaya lang tangna umulan kinancel tuloy yung shows. andami-dami tuloy tao sa libis parang palengke. ang putik pa.
6. hmmm.. and may i say naka long skirt pa ko nun (no time to change)
7. nakakatensyong sumakay sa nakikipagkarerang kotse sa quezon ave. damn you onin! damn you paul! hehehe (ayan na-special mention pa tuloy)
8. as usual, windang nanaman ako sa chem. bat ba kasi ang hirap ng kapnayan?
9. buti pa ang kas2.. ang pogi ni atoy! hehe. crush ko siya ang talino niya kasi.
10. muntik ng maobliterate ang pulse ni daisy (lab partner ko) nung kinuhaan ko siya ng bp (first time). masyado raw matagal at mahigpit ang pagkakainflate. hehe sori daisy! i give you all the right to revenge... 'yan ay kung mababasa mo ito bago mag lab session next week.
11. tinuruan rin pala kaming kumuha ng rectal temperature. gaaad.. akala ko i-papagawa talaga sa 'min ng actual yun! na-tension nanaman ako. masyadong third world ang rectal temperature.
LAst:
12. kumakain na ako ng gulay! congratulate me... hail me...

Always remember:
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punyeta

punyetang buhay 'to
pinapasulat kami ni atoy ng talambuhay and guess what? wala pa kong nauumpisahan. as usual, inatake nanaman ako ng major katam. dang! pero sabi naman niya yung mga relevant lang sa buhay mo at sa kung ano ka ngayon. e ano na nga ba ako makalipas ang labimpitong taon?


sinubukan kong gumawa. nainis lang ako. andami kong naalala. yung mga bagay na pilit kong kinalimutan naalala ko nanaman. punyetang buhay yan. ngayon, tinatamad na tuloy akong gumawa ng kahit ano.


wats new?

wait, before anything else, just want to put on record that for the past three days, i'm having this weird chest pain. i'm having it now. parang ang hirap huminga na hindi. gosh is this the end for me? 'wag naman sana. marami pa kong unfinished business. ayoko namang magmulto no! marami pa 'kong gustong gawin sa buhay ko- sumweldo, magkaboyfriend, european tour hehe. ahhh. paranoid. @_@
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enrollment last wednesday. as expected, it was uber sucky only because i forgot my change (mga 200+) and the cashier won't give it back. plus, i got no proof that i forgot my change. bwiset. feeling niya siguro nandadaya ako. bwiset again.


after enrollment, i watched harry potter 3 with mae, kes and julius. the plan to watch it with the berks didn't work out. atat kasi kami lahat. anyway, hp was not as good as i expected. the wait, was definitely not worth it. duh! two years, and that's what we got?! bungi-bunging version ng hp3. i know movies aren't supposed to be complete. but heller! OA naman sa pagka-abridged yun. if you're not reading the book, you won't understand some essential parts of it. like why Hermione needed a time-turner? and why Buckbeak was executed? etc.
plus, that was not how i expected Lupin and Sirius to look like. the new Dumbledore wasn't as majestic and magical as the old Dumbledore because he talked too fast for a man supposedly as old as he is and his clothes were less Dumbledore-like too. wadelse? yung Hogwarts nag-iba rin pala. and the WHomping Willow. and Hagrid's HUt. ang hindi lang nag-iba yung stairs. Oh and the Fat Lady was different too. did you notice?
hmmm.. hate to sound too critical so might as well end it here.
i still say the movie isn't as good as expected.

just another just-got-back-from- entry


made the trip alone from pangasinan today. mega boring sobra. good thing, i stuffed my bag with butong pakwan (the ultimate puyatan snack) before i left for manila. it gave me something to do minus all the extra calories of regular junk food. aaakkk. kelan pa ko naging diet conscious?


i survived almost a week without tv (may tv kaya lang channel 2 at 7 lang. minsan may channel 9), phone and internet. i almost lost it, but then again, there were loads of disney vcds that kept me intact. 'twas kinda lonely being there particularly in the afternoons when my nephews and niece have gone out to play with the other kids and i was left alone in the house to drown myself in minesweeper (which i have never mastered) and spider solitaire (which i'm currently mastering)and some old cds that kinda grew on me already.


i missed a lot of things when i was there. i missed the American Idol finale. missed blogging and blohopping. missed hours of pointless phone talks. missed truckloads of tv. promise! when i was in the middle of far away land, i swear i'd do anything for cable tv. desperate times call for desperate measures. but sadly, cable was non-existent. :(


and now that i'm back. i'm having this super weird feeling. parang nasusuka na ewan feeling. a week made me kind of used to the probinsya setting, already. fresh air, early bedtimes, silence, trees, lahat. as much as i want to stay there, i have to go home. enrollment's tomorrow. classes start on monday. back to the sick reality i have grown to love.

aww shit! serious case of butterflies and tension! i not quite sure why i have the butterflies but the tension, i think, is from that timer, right there, screaming i have only three minutes left on top of all the windows. i hate times things- tests, practicals, whatever! basta kahit anong may time pressure, di ko gusto, especially that stupid timer. arrgh kaya ayoko sa computer shop e. i am a free spirit, i work in my own time frame. cge na nga muna 1 minute left na lang e. nagbblink pa na kulay red!

tata!

got back yesterday afternoon from our Anilao outing. sobrang saya. i really love the sea. love the sand. love the sun. love the waves. love the whole beach setting. love everything. the beach is like my destiny place (if there's such a thing as a destiny place). although we weren't really able to swim in brine because the beach was so rocky and kinda scary because it was deep and really maalon but watdaheck i still love it.


we left for Anilao Saturday morning and got there around 12 noon. the weather was great. after lunch, we were supposed to go boating but we didn't because the boatmen said the waves were too dangerous for boating. so instead, we spent the whole afternoon learning how to snorkel (and me learning how to swim) in the resort pool. not quite how we expected to spend the whole day though. but it was fine, 'cause i finally learned how to swim and i learned how to snorkel too. we were in the pool until like 5 PM. and then, we got tired of it.
after dinner, we headed to our rooms played cards (there was no tv or even a radio in the room), had some "girl" talk , killed a spider and a lizard then slept around 12AM out of boredom, i think.


the next day was perfect for boating so we did. on our way, to our first stop, Sombrero Island which looked more like siopao to me than a sombrero from afar, we came across dolphins. it was so cool. too bad, we weren't able to take pictures. probably we were all awe-struck, nobody even bothered to get the cameras.
we reached Sombrero Island but we can't get near shore because the waves were tremendous but breathtaking, nevertheless. we went off the boat to go snorkelling there for a while, but the waves were too scary so the boatman decided to take us to another snorkelling spot.
manong took us into some cove where the waters were incredibly calm and teeming with life.. and jellyfishes.
we were itching all the time. but it didn't matter. what we saw underwater- the many Nemos, angelfishes, spongebobs, patrick starrs etc, was way, way beautiful and exhilirating to make up for that. i couldn't think of any other word to describe what i saw. again, we forgot to take pictures. masyado kaming namangha sa mga isda.
when we boarded the boat to head back to the resort everyone was so quiet and looking at the wooden floor of the banca as if contemplating on the beauty we just saw. windang is more appropriate. finally, we did a couple more picture takings.


we left the resort around 12 noon, happy, enlightened and never better.

:)


On my LAUNCHcast: Tom Petty- Free Fallin'
Fave line: And I'm free, free fallin'
Rating: ***

downloading... downloading...impatient!


gawd i have to download nanaman yahoo beta. kaeenesss naman talaga. it's so tagal. i can't listen to LAUNCH tuloy. like so sad noh. i was like excited pa naman.


tama na nga yang kaconyohan. saka na lang ulit. pag nakilala na namin si super filthy rich conio friend of our dreams ('la kasing super filthy rich sa up, meron man kurips naman hehe. peace!).
napagusapan nanaman kasi namin kanina na ang saya siguro ng college kung may super filthy rich conio friend kayo. hehe. baka isipin niyo napaka social climber ko ha... dahil totoo! haha. hindi no. basta kailangan niyo na lang marinig ang fantasy adventures namin with our super filthy rich conio friend, ang cool. hehe.


i'm sure di ka maka-relate. hehe.
ciao!

kung ikaw ay masaya, tumawa ka... ha haha
kahit na mukhang tanga, tumawa ka... ha haha
kung ikaw ay masaya, kung ikaw ay masaya
kahit na mukhang tanga, tumawa ka. HA HAHA

*siguro kinanta mo no? sus kunwari ka pa...


:D <--- ako yan, happiest person today

nararamdaman ko na talaga sa wakas. akala ko dadaan na lang ang taong 'to ng wala man lang totoong summer vacay. feel na feel ko na ang init ng summer kahit na patapos na at puro back-to school eklat na ang nasa mga mall, sa gitna ng mga hampas ng hangin at manaka-nakang ulang dala ng bagyong sumira ng aking payong. bagyong Dingdong yata yung pangalan di ko alam. and besides, wala na rin naman akong pakialam sa ulan, hangin at pangalan ng mga bagyo dahil pumasa na ako sa Chem31! :D :D :D x1,000,000


ayoko na lang i-jinx. basta masaya ako period.
bilyar na lang tayo pare!

onga pala...

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yay ALTO outing today. katulad last year sabit nanaman kami sa family outing nila kare sa pansol. okay lang, we're like family na rin naman e or at least, feeling ko lang, at home na kasi ako sa kanila e. kapal talaga ng mukha ko haha.


at dahil ayoko namang ma-waste ang effort ng pagpapaputi ko, nakapayong talaga ako habang nasa pool. mukhang tanga, pero kiber no! ayoko ngang umitim pa lalo. yun nga lang nabasa yung payong ni DK. ayaw pa naman niya yung mabasa. harhar.


anyway, we had a blast except nung nag pusoy dos kami kasi talunan ako. ang talo pa naman magshoshot ng sanmig lite atsaka uutusan. naawa na nga sila sa kin dahil ang rami ko ng beses uminom kaya the fourth time na natalo ako, na-exempt na ko, yung next na talo sumunod sa kin yung pinainom ng beer. si ALyana yun! nyahaha, kawawang bata. kaya lang, ilang beses akong kumuha ng tubig tska yelo (part yun nung penalty pag natalo ka. nagtataka na nga yata sina nanay ebeth and co. kasi pabalik-balik akong kumukuha ng tubig tsaka yelo kaya nauubos na yung mga plastic cups.


nung finally nag-ayawan na dahil ubos na yung san mig, swimming swimming na naman. nagfeeling mini olympics sila kare,yana at DK. pabilisan raw sa isang laps (crosswise nung pool masyado na kasing advanced kung lengthwise). di ako sumali dahil ayoko. pero ang totoo, di kasi ako marunong mag-swimming and besides, ang lalim kaya nung pool nakakapit nga kami lahat kay yana kasi siya lang ang nakakaabot nun. at kaya rin halos majority nung time e nasa kiddie pool kami kung saan napaka init ng tubig, parang lalapnusin yung balat mo sa init, malamang dahil sa hot springs o kaya naman dahil sa ihi. ha ha. di naman siguro.. (sabay takbo sa banyo at kuskos ng katawan).


baka akala niyo ganun na lang kami kaduwag, hindi no! nagpunta rin kami sa pinakamalalim na part kung saan completely submerged na si yana (imaginin niyo na lang kung hanggang saan namin yung tubig). nagpraktis kuno silang tatlo nanaman ulit, syempre hindi ako kasali dahil hindi nga ako marunong mag-swimming, kung papano mag-treading. nakakapagod mag-treading. kaya kung lulubog ang barkong sinasakyan mo, kaysa mag-treading ka para lumutang, i-spend mo na lang yung energy mo sa paglangoy papunta sa shore. yung ay kung marunong kang lumangoy, kung hindi naman, i-hoard na ang mga life vest.


hay naku. ang sakit na talaga ng mga mata ko sa antok. pero pakshet kelangan ko pang aralin yung chem. ZZZzzzzzzzzzZZzZZ....


On my LAUNCHcast:Thornley- So Far So Good
Fave Line:everytime I get lost in paradise
I find a way to screw it up somehow
Rating: ***

finished Veronika Decides to Die today. good read. asteeg. medyo philosophical na catcher-in-the-rye-ish minus the cussing. meron ding mga medyo pang pervert at exhibitionist na part. sa wakas, may natapos na rin akong book ngayong summer. yung Anastasia atska Da Vinci Code di ko pa rin natatapos. baka after summer class na lang.


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kahapon dahil wala kaming math (wala si mr. magboo) at naki sit-in ako sa 12 to 2 class, 2 pa lang off na'ko. nagkaron na naman ako ng isa sa mga impulsive moments ko. pupunta kong southmall. di muna ko uuwi. out of the way pero watdahell, wala kong paki. besides, gusto ko kasi ng bagong swimsuit, baka meron sa southmall. hindi naman ako solo flight kasi kasama ko si tin. bonding.. he he. bago pumunta ng southmall dumaan muna kami sa house nila, malapit lang kasi. gusto niyang dalhin yung car nila. first ever passenger niya raw ako. sabi ko sa kanya "ayoko pang mamatay ha di pa ko nagkakaboyfrend". syempre jokes lang yun. buti na lang hindi niya nalabas sa garahe ang kotse, nagasgasan, sumabit sa gate. sobrang bad trip siya, ako naman inisip ko "oh no, gumagana nanaman yata ang jinx mode ko". tuloy pa rin kami sa mall kahit na sobrang sama siguro ng feeling niya. wala naman akong magawa. sa totoo lang, hindi ko alam ang sasabihin sa mga ganung pagkakataon. "okay lang 'yan" would be sooo lame kasi obviously, hindi naman ok. sabi ko na lang normal lang yun, kahit na sobrang lame rin. bakit ba, sa totoo lang wala ka naman talagang masasabi sa mga ganung pagkakataon... diba?


medyo maganda ring gamot sa sama ng loob ang mall at ice cream. kaso ubos na ang mga swimsuit, tapos na raw kasi ang summer. unfair! naguumpisa pa nga lang sa 'min e. bumili na lang ako ng bagong shirt para hindi naman sayang ang effort ng pagpunta ko dun. after nun, umuwi na kami. at dahil may hang-over pa yata ang impulsive mode ko parang gusto ko na lang mag-jeep pauwi. dalawang sakay lang naman at makakatipid pa ko. pero turned out hindi rin ako nakatipid kasi pagdating ng alabang hindi ko pala alam kung saan ang sakayan ng jeep papuntang pacita dun. binago kasi nila yung lugar. wala na yung mga jeep dun sa dati nilang lugar. sumakay na lang ako sa isang fx. habang naghihintay ng pasahero para mapuno yung fx na realize ko na mali pala yung nasakyan ko kasi sa susana heights siya dadaan. ayoko sa susana, traffic. kaya bumaba ako (nagmuha tuloy na nagpalamig lang ako dun, he he, pakialam ba nila ayoko sa susana e). at nung finally, nalaman ko na (thru pagtatanong-tanong)kung saan ang tamang sakayan ng jeep papuntang pacita, ang haba naman ng pila. ayokong pumila at ang alternative route lang pauwi ay ang pumunta ng festival kung saan may fx terminal na papuntang pacita (via southwoods) kaya naglakad ako ng malayo papuntang festival. dun na lang ako sumakay ng fx (25 pesos ang pamasahe galing festi, 30 naman galing southmall). nakakainis kung magee-fx rin lang ako sa festi, sana nag-fx na lang ako nung galing akong southmall! waste of time and effort talaga sobrang sakit pa ng mga paa ko. second malas ko na yun kahapon.


pag-uwi ko nakalimutan kong nilagay ko pala yung necklace ko sa bulsa ng pants ko tapos nilagay ko na yung pants sa labahan. nung gabi rin, linabhan yun, sa washing machine. poor necklace, naipit sa washing machine. paborito ko pa naman yun. mangiyak-ngiyak na ko. at syempre, sinisisi ko sa iba yun kahit na alam ko namang ako ang may kasalanan. defense mechanism yun e. sinubukan kong hilain pero ayaw na niyang makuha. gusto ko sanang buksan yung washing machine kaya lang ayaw ni ma, mamaya raw masira ko pa yung washing machine, e mas mahal namang di hamak yun kaysa sa kwintas ko. wala ng pag-asa. pinutol na lang ni dad. nakuha ko pa rin naman yung pendant, kaya lang mga 3 inches na lang nung chain ang na recover. the rest, might have disappeared into eternal abyss. how sad..


nakakinis talaga. buti na lang magsswimming kami ng ALTO sa sunday. yay!

pahabol entry: i heart Paulo Coelho's "Veronika Decides to Die". loaded at may sense. totoo nga, nawawalan ng saysay ang buhay dahil sa pattern, normalcy at conformity. malas ko, ako ay mesohuman, average lang talaga. i live almost entirely on patterns and schedules. buti na lang medyo meron akong impulsive tendencies (oo, meron)at nagkakaron ng konting thrill, kung thrill na maitatawag yun, ang buhay ko. good thing i won't have to "decide to die", yet. and besides, hindi ako suicidal.mga loser lang ang nagpapakamatay. sa kabilang banda, wala nga pala akong karapatang manghusga ng iba. sumasakit lang ang ulo ko sa pag-iisip, tama na nga 'to.

darn

good news: hindi na sosobra sa limang araw ang itatagal ng summer classes. yay! ciao chem31! ciao math 1!


bad news:ciao nga ba tlga? o aloha na pwedeng goodbye or hello? arrrgh!! nakakabaliw. masyado ng madugo ang chem 31. habang tumatagal ang discussion para sa 4th exam, parami ng parami ang bagay na hindi ko maintindihan. habang nauubos ang pages ng manual namin, nauubos na rin ang pasensya ko.


pero di bale konting tiis na lang. konting tiis na lang.. pasukan na naman ulit! kainis 'no? mga tatlo hanggang apat na linggo na lang, first sem na naman. pero second year na. onga no second year na ko... asteeeg ang bilis. dalawang taon pa (at sana dalawang taon na lang) nurse na ko. di ko pa alam kung anong mangyayari sa kin pagkatapos nun pero ang mahalaga e grumaduate ako ng buo.


just thinking aloud: minsan hindi rin mabuti ang masyadong nagmamagandang loob...


sana matuloy yung sa sunday ;)

On my LAUNCHcast: Thursday- Signals over the Air
Comments: ok na ok. emo.
Rating: ****

harhar

dang! aga ko nagising ngayon, mga 7.30. nagtxt si kuya nakalimutan niya yung assignment niya at pinasend niya sa mail (stupid! he he). actually, nag-alarm ako ng 7.00 para mag-aral (may exam kami sa math) kaya lang wasted nanaman the effort kasi pinatay ko rin lang naman. oh well, at least I tried..


medyo gumanda tong blogger. kanina akala ko naligaw ng page. he he. okay dahil may color. kaya lang kulay brown.. nyek. sa totoo lang medyo gusto ko yung dati,kasi crammed sila lahat sa iisang window. mas madaling i-navigate para sa 'kin.


kaya lang sira naman yung taggy (for all i care). wadelse? for some reason, bago mo mabuksan ang yahoo maessenger dito sa pc namin e kelangan mo pa siyang i-download. sooper inconvenient at impractical. ako, mga tatlong beses ko ng dina download yan. kung di lang dahil sa launchcast...never mind. hay nako, dad sabi ko sayo e kelangan ng i-reformat nito!
RE-FOR-MAT!! RE-FOR-MAT!! RE-FOR-MAT!!
(he he palibahasa kasi na-burn ko na lahat ng dpat i-burn bwahahaha)


post-election crap
ayoko talagang nanonood ng balita. sad nga nung monday kasi every once in a while iniinterrupt yung mga programa para lang sa eleksyon. arrgh! anyway, tapos na yun. kaya lang may aftershock...
narinig ko kahapon ang nanay ko may kausap sa telepono, co-teacher siguro. pinaguusapan nila yung eleksyon kahapon. nag-serve kasi sila. sabi nila ang tagal-tagal mag-umpisa ng counting, tapos kahit gutom na gutom na yung mga teacher di pa rin pinapakain ng COMELEC, walang free food di katulad nung mga nakaraang eleksyon, kasi bawal magbigay ang mga kandidato, and the list goes on. kung may dpat i-hail sa lahat ng ito.. sila yun! hindi dahil nanay ko siya kundi dahil sobrang hirap nung ginagawa nila, all for a meager amount. so sad..


nakakatawa kapag eleksyon, ang daming nadadaya. halos lahat ng talunan dinadaya. kung gayon, lahat pala ng nananalo sa eleksyon (as in lahat) e nandaya. ha ha. funny. pero mas nakakatawa yung excuses nila.


Warning: American Idol ramblings ahead!
totodohin ko na ito. kahapon napanood ko yun "most shocking results show ever" ng American Idol. and maybe you've heard it too. yung tatlong divas (Fantasia, La toya, Jennifer) ang nasa bottom three. major pala tlga! nagulat ako nung nabasa ko siya sa net pero nagulat pa rin ako nung napanood ko. nung sinabi ng safe si La toya, (haay di na ko magpapakaplastik) medyo naiyak ako! medyo lang naman. but that's something kasi hindi ako mabilis maiyak. anyway, the feeling was like so mixed up. nakakainis, na nakakalungkot, na ewan! it was different. ang tanga tanga talaga. arrghh. hanggang sa pagkatapos ng show windang pa rin ako. pati na rin si kuya na windang rin. Yung nasa bottom three nga pala lahat sila african american... hmmm... baka racist. tsk tsk. hindi naman siguro.

meydo mahaba na 'to ayoko na.

Qu!z Adeek
medyo naadik ata ako sa quizilla... and there's more where that came from. ha ha. wala na talagang magawa. uhmmm.. dapat nagaaral na ko para sa 3rd long exam sa chem, kaya lang medyo nagsasawa na kong magdrowing ng Piattos (hexagon for benzene). Ayun. BUti na lang 55% ang exemption sa Dear Org chem. Average ko: 59.5 ayos na rin. 4.5 points na allowance. Mga 3 yan. goodbye CS certificate! (ang ganda mo pa man din). goodbye status symbol. goodbye cruel world...he he suicidal. cool.

A GIRLY-GIRL. You dont have a lot of self-esteem
and people are always bringing you down for
being sad. What do they know, anyway? You feel
like youre too mature for your age and are
frustrated by the trend-followers who refuse to
accept you because youre not like them.
Your virtues: Intelligence, understanding nature,
modesty.
Your flaws: Lack of social life, inferiority
complex, timidity..




What kind of girl are you?
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hah! what is this sh*T?! one major ewww...

Comfy is the word. You're traditional and content
with the simple things in life.


Discover your inner shoe!
brought to you by Quizilla

sooo true! pero mas maganda sana kung yung chucks na may fire fire thingy.

You have a free soul! As all the souls go, yours is
the most free-spirited and adventurous. You
like camping, hiking, or interaction with other
people. Your a social butterfly, but not
because of your style, but because of your
willingness to communicate with everyone. You
probably have close friends who can rely on you
because you always seem to know whats going on
in the world. You love music and are
free-spirited and someone fun to be around. A
born leader and great explorer-dont ever
change-the world needs more people like you.


What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures!
brought to you by Quizilla

har har free soul daw o! i think it's more like Marina. ha ha. funny. mas hilarious siguro kung hindi anime ang ginamit na picture. ok na sana yung quiz result except for this teeny detail "A born leader.." duh! me? leader? ewww... I can follow but I sure can't lead. I hate leading (but I don't hate leaders). Ayun lang.

hihi

yeh yeh i'm back. after that bloody, murderous 2nd org. chem exam. surprisingly, i'm still in one piece. either it was me or something was wrong with that shitty exam coz' it was so freakin' difficult as hell. i prepared for that exam whole Sunday resisting the urge to indulge in Sunday TV therefore, the possibility of flunking the exam will be the entire fault of that %@$#(* exam, not mine. hi hi (may naghuhugas kamay o...). why does chemistry have to be so darn difficult? why?!


uneventful week. what's new? i got an absolutely not guilt-free acrobat copy of da vinci code from --, whose name won't be mentioned because of shame *he he*( absolutely yes pun intended). am just ridin' with the fad. you know, nakikiuso. i've started reading it instead of the oh-so-boring- org. chem. manual, and yes, it's intriguing but i have to admit i had to occasionally check out the dictionary because there was just too much art jargon there. i can't even read all the French words and i'm not really an artsy person so, more than half of the museum-art stuff they were talking about was totally Greek to me. ha ha. but i do know what the mona lisa, venus de milo and winged victory are from my CTA (Communication Through the Arts) class in high school. wow! may natutunan rin pala ako dun... akala class-A pang-ookray lang ang na-master ko sa CTA. aha! you're having a fun!


On my LAUNCHcast: Finger Eleven- One Thing
Rating: ***
Comment:i can't really comment much kasi nagsasawa na ko rito

Oh yeah!

orayt! i survived yet another week of acids, bases, chemical rxns, neutrophiles, electrophiles, blah blah and god knows wadelse! (ooops blasphemy ba to?). ayun, i'm kinda on the nanganganib side sa chem 31. we got our 1st dept exams results yesterday. I passed. Thank God! That's a relief. But I'm kinda like getting inferiority complex 'cause everbody's getting like a line-of-seven on the first exam and my score was a friggin'... never mind! I know I should be thankful I passed (despite teh fact I came in an hour late for the exam), and I am a lot thankful just don't want to feel left behind, that's all. Kainis kasi e. Nakaseksyon ko pa yung mga g.c. , matatalino, at magagaling. Tuloy the pressure is tremendous (mga 1 ton na)! BUt sadly, tamad pa rin ako. Pero in all fairness, I occasionally engage in advance reading kahit papano. hihihi. Yeh ryt. If you even call that reading... it's more like looking-at-the-page-doing-something-else.


enough 'bout that.
I rode a BBL bus today. I swear if I hadn't been to eager to get home I won't ride a BBL bus. Luckily, the bus I was in wasn't as BULOK as expected. So ayun, I went on with the usual things I do when I'm alone in a bus... I eat. So this two college-ish guys come in (hehe cute yung isa, yung isa di mukhang hindi although sa peripheral vision ko lang natignan), sat beside where I was stitting. Parallel existence, we sat next to each other but had no interaction whatsoever. Normal bus people. The bus was at Pasay Road, I think, when they brought out this potted cactus and the contents of a large National Book Store plastic bag. IN big bold letters, the package said it was a Quickwrap Kit. I thought the obvious, they were going to give the cactus as a gift, maybe for a girlfriend, none of my business. SO they started to figure out how to use the Quickwrap Kit. I saw them read the manual a couple of times. BUt guys and gift wrapping are like "chocolates and onions", they just don't fit, that from where I sat I wanted to grab the cactus and the Quicwrap kit and do it for them. The fate of the cactus on the hands of those two was unbearable. The finally managed ay guy-esque way to gift wrap. Ewan ko lang ha, the package said Quickwrap but I think the bus is already at Parañaque when they finished wrapping the cactus. I could have done it in less than 5 minutes... hehe yabang..


Yahoo! Messenger Beta is cutesy. I finally got it working. But I haven't tried out the image thingy yet. Launch Radio is A-S-T-I-G. bwahahaha <- devilish laugh dpat yan!

On my LAUNCHcast: halata bang bago? Staind- Zoe Jane
Rating:****
Comment:good for people who like the mellow Staind.

Alam mo ba?

19.2 kbps lang ang connection speed ko pero gumagana ng matino ang mga sites. Nakapag Ym pa ko. Astig. HIndi ko nga lam na posible palang magkaron ng 19.2 kbps na speed at gagana ang browser.


Nabasa ko sa blog ni ay_lin: YUng lalaki asa US, tapos yung babae asa Pilipinas, nanghula ng number yung lalaki, ang nahulaang number ay kay babae, naging mag textmates sila. Umuwi ng Pilipinas ang lalaki. Nag-EB sila nung babae. Naging sila. Nagpakasal. Garden wedding. True story 'to. Astig, parang pelikula. Posible na pala ang ganun ngayon. Akala ko sa mga magazine at romance stories lang nangyayari yun.


"Manghula na rin kaya ako ng number?"


Kaya lang pano pala kung yung soulmate mo eh hindi cellphone user? Pano kung Mangyan o kaya Igorot yung soulmate mo? HIndi rin pala effective...

Monsters of the Ice

At last, gumana na ulit itong Blogger... medyo nabobo yata siya dahil sa sobrang dami ng nangahas na gumawa ng blog. Marahil dahil sa sobrang bagot dahil bakasyon o di kaya naman nahook lang sa blogging frenzy... parang ako!

Tapos na ang first of four depts sa chem at math. Natapos nung Monday. Hanggang ngayon walang katiyakan ang kahihinatnan ko sa Haying Kapnayan (Organic Chemistry). Bahala na. Nagsiswimming pa rin sa utak ko ang ang aldehydes, ketones, ethers, sp3, sp2, sp, double bond, triple bond, james bond (?)... lahat sila. Langoy lang ng langoy di rin naman naabsorb ng pangmatagalan. Ang di ko lang mawari ay kung gaano ko kabilis namememorya ang channel line-ups at palabas sa mga tv stations, local at cable, ganun naman kabagal kong namememorize ang formula at concepts sa chem. Buhay nga naman.

Nung Monday na lang ulit kami lumanghap ng simoy ng Robison's. BInago nanaman yung pintuan kung saan dapat papasok at lalabas. May bagong kainan din- Ice MOnster! Syempre porque bago kailangan naming subukan. May malaking poster sa harap ng Ice MOnster kung saan nakalgay kung ano yung mga tinda nila. Tumigil kami sa harap nun. AYos. Nahalatang first time namin. Bago sa jologs naming panlasa ang tunog sosyal na Ice Monster. Nakaramdam rin kami, kaya umupo na lang kami sa isang malapit na mesa. Ooops >singhot<.. ano yun? naaamoy niyo ba? Yuuuuuckk. Ang bahoooo! Lipat tayo. Kadiri amoy panis. Wala bang service crew dito? At nagulo ang buong Ice MOnster public. Lumipat kami ng lamesa. Dun kami sa mas maliit. Apat kami pero nagkasya kami sa pandalawahang lamesa. Ayos ang seseksi namin. Meron naman palang miniature version nung poster na tinitignan namin kanina sa mga mesa. Iyon naman ang pinagdiskitahan, dinuro-duro hanggang sa maisipang umorder. Umorder kami. Ano ito? Naubusan raw ng yelo?! Hindeeee... Kinukuha pa pala.

Kung tutuusin mahal ang isang serving ng ice monster mula 60 hanggang 90 piso ang budget. Meron ring mini version 45-50 piso pero huli na ng malaman naming meron pala nun. Malaki ang serving. Ice monster nga talaga kasi parang monster ang kakain. Mukhang masarap. Maganda ang presentation. Maraming yelo. Ang rami namang yelo nito... Kaya nga ice monster eh! Mukhang sosyal. Aba asenso na tayo ngayon. Ang sosyal na natin. Dati pa mcdo-mcdo lang. Sabay sabing Sana nag-Chowking na lang tayo... Sa susunod, na pag-usapan pa namin na dapat bawat linggo may kakainan naman kaming medyo sosyal. May theme every week. Date 'yun.

Hindi yata sanay ang sikmura ko sa sosyal foods (kahit na hindi naman masyading sosyal yun!)dahil sumakit ang ulo ko pagkatapos. Major brainfreeze. Naramdaman ko ring parang gusto kong masuka. Pero dahil iyon sa nakaupo ako sa balcony ng bus pauwi kung saan matagtag ang biyahe.

Hindi nga pala ako binayaran ng Ice Monster para mag advertise.

exams in summer. i never imagined it could be possible... until now, of course. summer used to be fun, all the bright colors, sweaty people and days and days without having to worry about anything academic. BUt now, and for the next two years I think, all summers shall be cursed. summer rhymes with bummer. great.

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chem exams on monday. wish me luck.

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Some trash I got but answered anyway:

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
"bantilaw, pu., hilaw pa, hindi husto ang pagkakaluto ng sinaing."
--from the Pilipino-Pilipino dictionary

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch
first?
--the window

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
--The Pianist.

4. WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is.
--4:00 pm

5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
--4:47 pm... my psychic powers are down

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
--electric fan. keyboard. tv. children outside.

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
--kanina. i bought ice for the mango shake i made.

8. Before you came to this website, what did you look at?
--google. searched for lyrics

9. What are you wearing?
--pambahay. top and shorts

10. Did you dream last night?
--i don't know. I must've woken up during my non REM sleep so I can't remember.

11. When did you last laugh?
--last night. watching That 70's show on ABC 5.

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
--light cyan paint and a couple of frames having a thai picture

13. Seen anything weird lately?
--i dunno. i maybe used to all kinds of weird stuff that i don't really notice them as weird anymore.

14. Last movie you saw?
--A Tale of Two Sisters. That's like ages ago.

15. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy
first?
--my dream house.

16. Tell me something about you that I don't know.
--i heart Mandy. haha

17. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt
or politics, what would you do?
--i would like to banish all poverty and make people forget that there exists such word. haha, too altrusitic. i would want to make cable tv free.

18. Do you like to dance?
--no not really.

19. George Bush: is he a power-crazy nutcase, or someone who is finally
doing something that has needed to be done for years?
--war freak. power crazy, amen to that. paranoid too! start searching for weapons of mass dectruction in America, freak.

20. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
--maybe louise or some other boy name na pwedeng itawag sa girl para bang androgyny or something.

21. [Same question for a boy]
see above.

22. Would you ever consider living abroad?
hell yeah! just to get out of this heat. it's so darn murderous already.

Eto na naman. Nararamdaman ko na ang CWTS Syndrome. Yung tinatamad kang pumasok dahil tanghali na at feeling mo wala ng klase. Hindi naman pwede umabsent kasi hindi na nga ako nagbabasa ng module, hindi pa ko makikinig sa klase. Ewan ko lang kung saan ako pupulitin pag ganon. Isa lang ang masasabi ko dyan: "Tinatamad ako!". :) what's new?

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Hindi ko nga pala naabot yung isa sa mga short term goals ko. tsk tsk. kulang sa aral sa majors. sana mapagbigyan next tym.. pero mukhang malabo. ang totoxic ng mga subjects namin next sem. parang tanga. sabay-sabay sila lahat. haay bahala na. live each day at a time.

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For some reason, down ang server ko kagabi at ayaw lumabas ng google at yahoo at higit sa lahat ayaw mag-appear nung mga blogs. akala ko nasira ko na yung browser namin. buti na lang hindi :p. Kung wala pala kayong magawa at gusto niyong matakot search niyo to: Grigori Rasputin. Nakakatakot ang itsura niya. Pero in fairness kamukha niya yung isang lalaki sa System of a Down. YUng mga tao nung time ni Rasputin ay naniniwala na meron siyang healing powers. creepy... try ko ipost yung picture niya if i have time.

This will be the end. :: TTFN
egay 0_o

New Template

I really had to change templates after all. The pink layout got busted and I don't have the time to do the necessary repairs so I opted to post a new template. Bummer! I sooo liked that pink one.

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Not really much going on in my dull, boring and pathetic life now. I'm currently enrolled in summer class and am taking Chemistry and Math subjects. Chemistry, as usual, is frightening with all the C's (symbol for Carbon) and H's (element 1). And Math would always be Math.

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Wait. Will you look at that annoying banner? Irksome. It should've been perfect if not for that stupid banner.

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Because I, again, had nothing better to do I randomly clicked my mouse on some of sed's blog links and I found out through these tests that :

A Dream GF!

You're a definite keeper. You're not needy or clingy and you're almost as much fun to be around as one of the guys! You know exactly how much space your guy needs and how to keep your own groove on while in a relationship.

Wow! And to check the accuracy of that result. I took another similar test:

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

-Perfect-
You're the perfect girlfriend. Which means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're the kind of chick that can hang out with your boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't care about presents or about going to fancy placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy being around your boyfriend.

That's from two different tests!

This will be the end. :: TTFN

Darn 2/ Help!

I forgot to post Darn 1. It disappeared. I copy pasted my new template on the template tab and clicked on preview but the stupid blogger ad banner kept showing up. It is the rip on the otherwise perfect dress that is my new template. If you happen to know how to get rid of that ad, please tell me. I really want to have an ad-free template.

My life is rated PG.
What is your life rated?

American Idle

Either I'm so hooked with American Idol or I just had nothing else better to do. I watched both reruns of AI and I checked out idolonfox.com. Fantasia has pretty bad reviews. She can sing and all but maybe, all the praises crept into her head and it has blown up a little already. I don't know if anyone has noticed but she didn't handle Simon's critiscisms very well. She was, in fact, a little pikon and she tries to hide it but idoes a sucky job at it. I think, Ryan Seacrest felt it too. She has that personality thingy working for her, though and she can sing so maybe she'll be on the show long enough, maybe she'll be on the final 6 or 5, even.

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blabs

People today don't have Good Fridays like we used to have them when we were younger. I remember when Biyernes Santo seemed so solemn that we were scolded by Tita Arce when we laughed a teeny bit loud. Or how my Tita Fe would tell us to take a bath early because when 12 noon strikes, they told us, we were already forbidden to bathe because Jesus was about to die. I didn't quite got the logic there but as a child, of course, I believed them because they're older and I thought they know better. I also grew up on the belief that when you get wounded on Good Friday, it would take your wounds a very long time to heal because supposedly, since Jesus is dead, his healing powers are down. I remember me and my cousins took extra care in playing or not play at all during Good Friday because we were afraid we'd get wounded. Before, you were supposed to be sad on Good Friday even if you don't feel like being sad at all , that's why we say, "parang Biyernes Santo ang mukha mo" whenever we see someone look really gloomy.
But now, Good Friday was just like any other day. In fact, in our street, children seemed to be noisier and numerous than usual like there was some conspiracy that they'd all go out at once you'll be puzzled where all the kids have come from. It could be because of cable TV and the internet that we don't fell much of Good Friday anymore. It was one thing to do away with silly beliefs but another to take away the solemnity of Good Friday.

My First Photoshop Creation
I know it's lame but I'm a beginner!

Useless Quiz Result



What Invisible Thing Am I?



Do I need a Boyfriend?



How much of the Internet Loves me?

56% Of The Internet Loves Me!

I am loved by 56% of the population, including: 12660 people who love students 16294 people who love young people 14402 people who love geeks In return, I love 90% of the population, including: 10434 short people 3426 pagans 8751 tall people

show the love at spacefem.com

Which Annoying Internet Thing Am I?



My Kind of Evil

What's maunday about thursday?

hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa rin alam ang ibig sabihin ng salitang "maundy". nagsimba kami kanina dahil nga maundy thursday. taun-taon naman kaming nagsisimbatuwing huwebes santo pero ngayon lang ako nagtaka dun sa pagrere-enact ng paghuhugas ni Hesus ng mga paa ng mga disipulo niya. yung pari, siya yung gaganap na Jesus tapos hahakot ng labindalawang laymen para gumanap na disipulo. in full costume pa. sabi nila para raw maalala natin na maging "of service to others" katulad ng ginawa ni Hesus. tapos yung mga nagsisimba manonood kung papano huhugasan nung pari yung mga paa nung "disipulo" niya. dahil rin sa sakit ng tiyan at hindi sagarang paniniwala sa tradisyong ito, hindi rin ako tumayo para panoorin yung "play" nila.

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Nagpagupit na 'ko

pero mas maikli kaysa sa inaasahan ko... short hair na tuloy ulit ako. arrgh! curse that Allan gay!lesson learned: 'wag masyadong maengross sa pagbabasa ng magazine tungkol kay posh spice at david beckham sa parlor habang nagpapagupit.

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I'm an AI fan too

jasmine kinda sucked on last night's American Idol country song presentation. it could've been the song. Breathe is one of the songs you'll enjoy listening to or even singing along with but never a contest-ish type of song, i think. on the other filipina, camille, i think she sings well (first time i heard her sing today) but her nerves are showing. can't blame her though. yeah right, don't i sound like paula abdul now? :) but the performance that sucked big time was matthew's. it sucked bigger than he is. the puppy dog look wasn't at all working for him. he looked like a muscular homosexual (no offense to gay people. i love gay people). again, it's the song. an upbeat song would've sounded better for him. while i waswatching his performance, it felt like watching Carlos Agassi do drama. a definite, definite YUCK!

guess, you've received this e-mail not just once. it made me think.. try to think about it too.

THINK ABOUT THIS:
1. At least 5 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
-- 5? i can only think of 3 and i'm not so sure about 1. my mom and dad and let's count Jesus too.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you, in some way.
-- more than 15 naman siguro dahil extended family pa lang.. marami na.

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you, is because they want to be just like you.
-- kawawa naman yung isang yun. lahat naman ng gusto niya maging, ako pa. how pathetic

4. A smile from you, can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
-- yeah whatever.

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
-- really? kaya pala di ako makatulog e. hehe

6. You mean the world to someone.
-- awww... nakakaintriga 'to ha! hehe.

7. Without you, someone may not be living.
-- oa..

8. You are special and unique, in your own way.
-- i know. hehe (kapal ba?)

9. Someone that you don't know even exists, loves you.
-- downright creepy...

10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
-- maybe.

11. When you think the world has turned it's back on you, take a look, you most likely turned your back on the world.
-- kewl.

12. When you think you have no chance at getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, you probably sooner or later will get it.
-- damn. so cliche.

13. Always remember complements you received, forget about the rude remarks.

14. Always tell someone how you feel about them, you will feel much better when they know.
-- talaga? kakashy e

15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they're great.



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Whatever*

i was going through stuff under my bed matress when i came across a wish list i wrote probably a month ago when i was feeling depressed (i did?!)and i desperately wanted to put order in my life. i don't quite understand how a wish list could tidy up my messy college life but at least, you would know what to give me for my birthday. deviations from the said list would still be appreciated. i could definitely feel my face blow up now...
WISH LIST:
1) laptop
2) digicam
3) ipod
4) unlimited free DSL access
5) plasma TV (at least 21' but bigger would be better) or an LCD projector
6) cd ng Silverchair (yung greatest hits o kaya lahat ng titles pede rin)
7) drumset! (nyek)
8) optional: supply ng walang side-effect na whitening pills (kung meron man)

this is my wish list, my literal wish list. everything's just a wish... it could come true but i doubt if it would. >sigh!<
under the wish list, i wrote a list of my long term goals.

LONG TERM GOALS:
1) maka-graduate ng BS Nursing sa 2007
2) magkaron ng master's degree
3) magkaron ng PhD (kung single pa ko at age 29)
4) to travel the world
5) have an extensive CD collection (nyek! with all the piracy i'm doing, this is quite impossible.)

i think it's a pretty reasonable list but in case i don't reach these, i'll make another one.

opposite my long term goals i wrote:

SHORT TERM GOALS:
1) maging CS (ahem.. pagbigyan na. libre naman e.)
2) maka 1.75 sa mga N subjects
3) maipasa ang Chem 31 sa summer at Chem 40 next sem
4) mapanood ang Passion of the Christ
5) have a Silverchair cd

and i think i want to take them all back... i don't work under pressure, you know.

And I'm back in the game...
For some time, I hated my blog. I hated it so much that I wanted to delete it. Good thing, my internet account ran out and I didn't get to have the chance to do it.

Sibling Warfare
Bad trip. Mahaba-haba na rin yung na-type ko last week na come-back blog kaya lang sa buwisit ng nanay ko dahil sa sibling war namin binunot niya yung saksakan ng AVR. Poof! Syempre namatay yung computer. Ni-reboot ko kaya lang dahil sa sobrang inis at panghihinayang, tinamad na 'kong ulitin 'yon. Ang nakakainis pa nakagamit tuloy ng telepono ang ungas. Lumalabas, ako ang talunan. Arrgh. Pero ang weird kasi kahit na sobrang dapat mainis ako o di kaya naman magalit, wala akong naramdaman. Oo, medyo, nainis ako pero medyo lang. Hindi outrage katulad ng inaasahan ko sa ganong mga pagkakataon. Hindi ko tuloy alam kung immune na lang talaga ako, naging manhid na ko sa dami ng bagay na dapat kong ikainis o kaya talagang mabait lang ako, period. Sana lang..